If you have a presentation and feel fearful, tap into your innate confidence, even if public speaking is enough to make you run and hide. I act happy and well infront of them. People always pretend to be happy when they're not because they are afraid to tell their real feelings or the real inside of them. I know it's not someone else's fault that I am so depressed, so I try to be polite, smile, say I'm fine when it takes every ounce of energy I have just to get dressed and leave the house. Things like: It's all in your head Don't worry, I know what thats like Just keep pushing. The friend acted like it never happened, and as did I, making it worse obviously because I was alone again, none of my other friends, as far as I know, know about this night. I had to try harder , be more thankful, work harder, etc.
They may tell you later, not at that moment, or maybe never, but you get the exact feeling that you were judged. At least at work I have a purpose. An easy way to look and act happy is smiling. I know God never intended for life to be this way. There are people in worse situations who stay strong but here I am making a mountain of a molehill. I've actually been trying to act even more fake cheery. When I encounter a pretty lady I turn away and start shivering as to not stain or dirty her with my attention.
I can relate and I feel completely at home with you guys on this thread. When we let go, peace and freedom can show up authentically. The feeling of having depression really sucks. Now, she is still clinically depressed but more open. There are very few freethinkers around here and even those that do exist are to be regarded with distrust.
You don't need to pretend everything's okay tell some one who can help you everyone has problems even the most normal and happy ist people to are eyes has problems just talk to someone you can trust that won't judge you and will support you like a trusted friend or family maybe even a 7 cups listener. The triggers for depression vary from person to person. I hate having to fake it all the time. I hope the doctor did not disclose any information. Just keep telling people until someone helps you. That allows me to take stuff one day at a time by appreciating the simplest things opening up my eyes and moving my legs, because i love to dance. Mercifully, I live alone and can drop the façade when I lock the front door.
Start with your toes, then work on muscle groups through your legs, hips, stomach, chest, arms, shoulders, and neck. Thank god for this forum as we have nowhere else to turn especially a room full of others crying in depression like me. Are people laughing at me and avoiding me or is that the depression talking? I am always happy, cheerful and sweet in school but i feel sad and i almost want to cry a river when im alone. Some days I just want to stay home and cry all day, I sometimes by away from television as it shows pretty ladies and couples in love and that just crushes me. I actually had a cigarette this am gave up recently as felt fit stressed about it all. Like afraid of me or think of me as a psyco crazy guy. I've participated in two social events the past two days which is a lot for me , and I'm so utterly exhausted from faking my happiness.
A friend and colleague of mine, clinical psychologist Merry Lin, writes candidly about her journey through recovery from burnout in her book. The fact is that everytime I take off the mask everyone can see it. At its worst it descended into free-floating dread and certainty that doom was imminent. It was just last year that my mom found out that she was depressed…and all this while my mom have been venting out her anger on me. This can be especially helpful before a big presentation or something that makes you feel anxious. How can someone feel dread when coming home to see their family everyday? How can people continue to smoke when they know the damage it is doing to themselves? I wish she could stay there for longer, n just be a teenager having fun. Life about luck, environment and opportunity.
Masking your feelings and emotions can be a good approach in the short term to counter depression, but in the long run, it may not be the best. The best we can do is to start today with ourselves. Mother Theresa is a good example. Ur story taught me that i have to look back i to my past so i can resolve my troubles in the present. I don't think there is an answer. I'm glad you shared because a lot of times I feel like I'm the only one experiencing these feelings. I thought I was depressed but then I manged to go out and laugh and smile.
That is the worst part, the replays of the events that make you think you are less than others. People may fear them, despise them, or dismiss them as mean. Today I spent time outside to get some sun, I exercised, and I posted on social media to try to connect with someone, anyone. I have only recently started opening up to friends, family, and work mates. But I also need to be compassionate and forgiving of myself and also at the same time kick myself in the booty and keep going. Sometimes people come around too, if they are given time to process things. But at least I can recognize it and do something about it.
It is exhausting, like you said, but in sharing articles like this, educating others, hopefully the world will have a few more sensitively tuned people that can look past the facade and step into a helping, caring role, even for a few minutes. I get straight, unlike my brother. Depression is a dark shadow that casts itself over every single breath you take. We really need to stop dictating to depressed people how they should feel. The point is to say as little as possible and perhaps even duck out of the conversation. Even if you're not okay for a long time.